I’ve never really been that into Numerology. Like a lot of people I’m sure, I saw the movie The Number 23 (2007), and while I enjoyed it, I never really thought about attributing something like it to myself. But perhaps I should have?
It seems a long time ago since I was introduced to the meaning behind Slayer’s seminal track, 213 (from what is still my favourite of their records – Divine Intervention, and for me the best they’ve done) and since I was already hooked on the song, I became hooked on the meaning. It is of course a reference to the apartment number of Jeffrey Dahmer; the notorious serial killer and cannibal who stalked Milwaukee during the 1980’s and early 90s. Not only do I find interest in the subject of serial killers, but I felt drawn to finding out about more about Jeff, and later what happened to him while serving time for his crimes.
But something curious happened.
This number kept popping up. Everywhere. I mean to say that at least I noticed it everywhere. There, that might be more apt. But there it was nonetheless, as though my darker interests and thoughts were staring back at me on pretty much everything. I was drawn to noticing apartment numbers marked 2.13 or 213, focusing in on the number, staring in while it stared out, right through me. And seeing it pop up on till receipts always brings a wry smile. Even notice it sometimes when checking the time. I laugh to myself at the idea that it follows me of course, but there’s something rather intriguing embedded within it. Maybe I just tuned in to it, and it to me. Seeing it brings a sense of being watched. Not celestially, but as though something peers out at me from time to time; eyes in the great Dark, or perhaps not even that. An idea in the chaos of nothing. Something just out of reach of conscious thought, dancing on the edges of Nothing. Maybe I’ll find it one day . . .
I mean, I’m already all about the number 13, so maybe it’s not that huge a leap? Who knows. But one thing I do know is that the thought never scared me. Never scared me that this particular number was connected with Jeffrey Dahmer. Or that it has seemed to follow me everywhere since 1995. So much so that I decided to get it tattooed. Both as an indicator of my fascination with serial killers like Jeff, and also because I embrace its presence always. There’s something oddly comforting in seeing it pop up, weird as that might seem to others. But weird is good. And always welcome.
Mind you, it’s only one digit away from being the number that torments Carrey’s character too . . . 😉
Well, there’s my rambling for the day. Best go be productive.